I am so tired.
I thought it was because yesterday was a 'everything goes wrong' kind of day, but I'm pretty sure that's not it. As I told my mum that I was pretty sure I was just exhausted from the previous day, she suggested that maybe I was tired from the last year.
A year ago, my uncle was sick with very aggressive cancer. He passed on Christmas Eve of 2010. I got pregnant with Kalyn within days of his funeral.
My pregnancy with Kalyn was not an easy one. Besides the face that I had a little 2 year old to chase around, I was having a lot of back pain and cramping.
When I was 20 weeks pregnant the doctor found what's called an arachnoid cyst in her cerebellum. We still aren't sure yet what damage it may have done, if any. Because of this, I had monthly ultrasounds to monitor it with a pediatric neurologist.
At 28 weeks pregnant I began cramping a lot. We thought it was Braxton Hicks, but after a while we ended up meeting the midwife at the hospital as a precaution. Turns out it wasn't Braxton Hicks and I was put on light bed rest. Obviously I didn't do a good job of it because I was admitted to hospital at 31 weeks for premature labour.
I was in the hospital for three weeks. Although it was nice to get away and sleep and be taken care of, it was really stressful knowing that Sonia was being passed around from person to person so Dave could go to work. However I am really thankful for everyone who helped us out during that time. We couldn't have made it without you.
I was discharged at 34 weeks on strict bedrest.
Kalyn was born at 38 weeks.
When she was born we saw that she had another cyst, this time on her eye. Thankfully that one went away, but now she seems to have a lazy eye... we'll have to see in the next month if it corrects itself or if further measures will have to be taken.
Now I have my girls. Now I have TWO girls.... now I have Sonia plus one more.. sigh.
I'm exhausted.
Sonia is a go-go-go kind of girl and I really have barely had the energy to keep up with her alone, let alone keep up with her AND Kalyn..
Now we have appointments ALL OVER for K and her cyst. GP near by, pediatrician in Mill Bay, Pediatric Neurologist at the hospital....
We were at the pediatrician yesterday. Although Kalyn is looking good weight wise, she doesn't have the muscle tone that she would have liked to see. She can't yet hold her head up and she doesn't follow with her eyes most of the time. This is most likely related to her cyst.
Now, we are going to be having appointments with the pediatric neurologist sooner rather than later to book her MRI and also appointments with an 'Early Intervention Team' to help us help Kalyn with her development.
So driving home from the appointment when my mum suggested I was tired from the whole year....yeah.
I think I am.
